I back huzzahh! But not yet in full normal format – I’ve had a bad month, I spent a while comfort eating, then it was time of the month, then my IBS played up and well I won’t go into that but it just meant I felt I was on a road to nowhere, then there was this week…I could tell you all the good things that have happened I lost weight woohoo so proud of myself I have to admit I’m another 2 pounds down but then there was the incident. If you follow me on facebook you might have noticed this post: Just a bit of advice I’m sure most know anyway.When you see someone in the street who looks ‘different’ don’t shout abuse you never know what’s really gone on, how they came to be that way, what is underneath it all. Words do hurt; as much as we all say they shouldn’t and we should just ignore them sometimes it’s so much easier said than done.So just take a step back and think… How could what you’re saying effect the person you’re saying it too.Names can be hurtful.There are many reasons behind me and my weight to name a few:My Medication – it’s not so bad now but when I was on a higher dosage I used to take them and then within half an hour be ravenous but also partly-asleep, I would sneak downstairs and steal whole packets of biscuits, cakes, anything and everything I would then hide the evidence and never remember it in the morning, it was only when we came upon the ‘stash’ one time we realised what had been happening – main weight gain phase 1.An Ex – I’m not going to go into this too much there’s more on my past in old posts, but one of my abusive ex’s was also a feeder, he would have me making chips late at night and then would force me to eat them all (and I’m talking a big bag of spuds worth) and if I didn’t well that wasn’t worth thinking of – main weight gain phase 2. Mobility – Then there is now, after gaining and losing, gaining and losing I thought I was finally ’ok’ I wasn’t slim but I was happy, I was active and fit and then came swine flu. Followed by my CFS getting worse and then finally the Fibromyalgia diagnosis and here I am now. Not at my biggest no that would have been after phase 2, but still unhappy and wanting to feel like me again. – Phase 3.So the above statement was made at the end of a long upsetting day, we needed to pop into town to get some change for Ash as he was running low and back at work the next day, I decided to park in town I wasn’t feeling great so walking from a car park would have been near impossible and they have spaces through the town centre for those with mobility badges. So off I tootle with my Mum and Ash, find a space but some people have decided to stand partway in it, and don’t want to move so I park over to the side still in the space but not running them over. You know when you know something awful is coming I knew it then – I could see them peering through the windows, and as much as I wanted to move I decided to ignore them, get out and get on. That’s when it started.. ‘Oi Love you parked a bit far over ain’t ya’
I heard behind me – I should have ignored it I should have walked on, I don’t know why I didn’t something inside me made me turn around and say.
‘Well yes you were rather in the way and I thought it best not to run you over’.
I should have expected the reply that would come, I should have known better. ‘Fat C***’Yes there in the middle of town I was called fat and the c word, surrounded by people, all looking at me, funnily her friends and her scampered off rather quickly after then shouting.
‘Oi I’m talking to you’
When I failed to respond or even look at them – I was reliably informed, and I was ok for a bit, but then it hit me and I started crying, it hurt I’m not sure which part more to be honest, as I’m not one for swearing and I despise the ‘c’ word. So please when you look at the above statement, try and put it into every situation you can just think if you don’t know the full story, don’t judge, don’t stare, and please don’t shout names. They do hurt. I think I’ve rambled on for enough this week – please check out my weigh in buddies.Jane – 7HippoptamusLaura - Ray Mears Extreme HousewiferyAlison – Dragons and Fairy DustCheryl – Madhouse Family ReviewsQueen of the Ads Ji Ji Kiki
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