So I haven’t completely been participating in Fitness Friday for the past month or so, and in all honesty I have been sat on my behindy more than ever, and the fact the other half can and will eat anything he wants means there is always some sort of chocolate or sweet or well just pure junk around the place. And he hasn’t been eating it I have, so now not only do I have the original weight I need to loose but some more on top.

I have to admit I’m scared, yes I can easily cut out all the rubbish for a couple of days maybe even weeks, but the craving is always going to kick back in. And I will again be surrounded by chocolate and sweetie wrappings that I try and pretend I haven’t eaten.

I’ve always been a person whos weight has gone up and down, I’ve never been able to be just be slim, if I want to be slim I have to work hard for it, I do have the lovely fact on top that my meds make me put on weight. This has been confirmed by my doctor, and actually isn’t a I can’t loose weight because.. It just makes things harder. But hey aren’t I normally one to say now that’s just to hard, more like BRING IT ON!

So here I am sitting down again for the second time this year saying I am going to lose weight, part of me wonders if I’ll do it.. should I just give up now and admit defeat and live the rather obese life. Or like everything do I just keep on trying with the knowledge that like giving up smoking I will get there one day? Ok for me I’ll keep trying, that’s just me, though it might take a while and I might have to keep getting up again after having been knocked down for a while, I will never been thin.. I just want to be healthy.

So that’s it through all my ups and downs I shall keep you all updated in the hope that with someone who might just be reading this in the next few days or maybe in a years time, we can walk the road of trying to beat the demons of over eating and one day make it to the end of that road.

To anyone else trying to lose some weight good luck, and to all who have well done.